Life Series: Blog of Evolution

I have been mulling this thought over for quite some time now without a resolution; are we supposed to learn something from life or just live it from day to day like a daily adventure, and I am not referring to mundane planning decisions or even the so called strategic planning that we do for career, money, family, etc.  Of course one would argue that we do a lot of planning to get a right job, spouse or even getting into a Mumbai local but does the plan succeed due to our meticulous calculations or was it any ways going to happen and should we really claim planning success if got a seat to sit-in at Bandra?

Most of us stop thinking about existential issues once we come into existence and the only related question we ask ourselves is how do we manage our existence and not why.  Having a philosophical bent of mind, with beliefs in occult and spirituality  and being educated in science has left me sitting on a curious spiral degenerating me into a conspiracy theorist with specialization in god, destiny, fate, free will and other related oxymoron’s.

I started my life normally with the usual biases, paranoia, and dogmas, of course it’s common knowledge that dogma’s are injurious to health but so are cigarettes. I feel dogma’s have their value in our lives they are akin to fiber only that instead of regulating bowel movements they regulate mental health.  If one analyzes dogma’s deeper, one realizes that it doesn’t matter what you believe in, you can always justify it as right or wrong be it minor social differences in our cultures to cannibalism! But had we not had them and had we questioned or flip-flopped on everything in life, I don’t think human civilization would have gotten anywhere!

I have off-late become more and more acutely aware of my evolution and the changes in my beliefs, I am only calling it evolution from the perspective of realizing the changes in my beliefs  and not because I consider I am believing in better quality beliefs.  Of course we all get caught in the daily grind starting from milk, newspaper to boss, work, vacations or the lack of it and forget all about this until the time we start going through some tough moments.  But once the though phase starts, first comes despondency and then comes philosophy the order may vary but usually one follows the other; one starts questioning why me why not my ex or my boss, but once you are past that stage but hopefully still in the philosophy mode you realize that had it not been for the tough moments you would have continued your material existence and never done any thinking. Maybe its life’s way of ensuring that one actually connects with one’s own self.

I have had the strange (well at least by my standards) incidents which reminded me of my own strengths, weaknesses, mistake patterns (both monetary and relationship ones), evolution, and the tangents I have taken.  I have even been thrown off track by words like mental compatibility, differing value systems, and cultural differences!  So I know I am the learning type and not the bungee jumper.  I know all this sounds like random gibberish but here is where I ask myself do we live our life by analyzing, understanding, and learning from its tough moments or do we think of it as just a bad stretch of road on NH8 and rough it out?